A
personal update
Seemorerocks
I
have been meaning to give a brief update to what is going on for me.
Not
so long I made a complaint about a medical practitioner who walked out on me during a consultation because I was not of a mind to
dutifuly listen to her telling that I was depressed and there was
‘nothing wrong’ with me.
I
had a meeting with practitioners at the medical centre with a friend,
my partner Pam – and also my very good doctor where I expressed my
feelings about this episode and being ignored when trying to
communicate to them that I was very unwell and becoming increasingly
so.
This
gave my doctor to observe me outside of a consultation. He became
concerned at a near-constant grimacing and other involuntary
movements.
On
the basis of this he referred me to the Neurology Department of
Wellington Hospital.
Last
week I had an appointment and was given the most complete medical
investigation I have had in some years and was treated with respect –
something that is a bit of a novelty.
On
the basis of the consultation I was referred for blood and urine
tests which were looking at genetics to rule out the most likely
candidate.Huntington’s Disease which, it hardly needs to be pointed
out, is pretty devastating.
Expressing
how I feel about this I have to say that this taken together with
what I am aware is happening on this planet and the mass insanity
that is overtaking it together with other things in my personal life
makes me feel like there is nowhere to go and I feel fundamentally
and deeply tired.
How
this will affect my work on this blog in the near future I am not
sure. Mostly I feel I have very little energy or heart to continue as
I have for over five years.
No
doubt the next major headline will change all that, but right
now.....
Perfectly understandable you feel that way, Robin.
ReplyDeleteCan only speak for myself, but wonder if many others think similarly.
Your blog is essential reading, one of the 3 most indispensable sources of info I know about.
As depressing as the state of the world is, it is also fascinating how everything will play out.
It's likely to get ugly and eventually unlivable, but until then I'm sticking around to see what happens. Really hope you do the same...
May I respectfully suggest constantly living breathing very negative events, as you have done for years, has sucked your energy dry leaving you open to a wide variety of ailments and eventual death. Walk away from all negative input/associations for a three month period...and replace it with positive learnings (try photography)what have you got to loose.. lets see what happens. Best wishes on your journey. Sometimes I think you are way to far left..but I still read your stuff daily and appreciate your work...but now it's time to shift gears. Pass the torch and give it a break...you never know, you may start feeling better.
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